Monday, July 11, 2011

A walk to Remember (quotes)

"I might kiss you" "I might be bad at it"

"I told you not to fall in love with me."


Why is money always an object? I live in a middle class family. I like my life its comfortable. I understand we don't have everything, but its better then living in the projects. People in the projects would kill to live the way Middle Class people do. So Dad why can't you be happy with what you have? If we need a little extra money take some part time jobs or I can work just convince mom to let me work during the school year. Money is important to a point but in an instant it can all be gone and what you have left is your family. So isn't it better to have a good relationship with your family who you'll be with all eternity, then money that can burn and shrivel in a second.
I have a boyfriend his name is Marc. He's a really sweet guy. He's really into music. It's his life he knows all these great bands. But he listens to them for their instrumentation. He's not like me I listen to the lyrics and go into depth of what they mean. Haha we are very different people. I still have to get to know him better. I know that his favorite color is purple and that his birthday is this month and I don't know when. Which is sad because I should know. I also know that he doesn't like to dance. He writes music. But the problem is I don't feel like we are dating or that he's my boyfriend. I just feel like we are friends who just have an awkward annoying title. XP I don't know if I will feel that he is my boyfriend, but I guess its ok because then I won't freak out about being in a relationship. When I'm around Marc I want to be a better person. That's what I like about him.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

I was tempted

Today I went swimming at a friends house. There was a guy there who graduated a while ago. He went to my high-school. He's eighteen. He's tall and sweet. He was my best friend my freshman year. I would go over his house to get away from my parents and just sleep there.( I used to have a crush on him) I saw him today this is the second time I saw him this summer. I was confused because he seemed like he was  into me. So I acted pretty weird and pushed him away. But he said I was cute it made me blush what a nerd right. He would pick me up and throw me into the pool. And he would get really close and hug me. It was nice because I missed those types of hugs. But I would push away. He also wrapped his legs around me. I felt safe and scared at the same time because he could easy do what ever he wanted with me. (He is stronger then me and twice my size.) I kinda wanted to kiss him for just making me feel special. I haven't felt that way in a while. But haha probably not going to see him for the rest of the summer. He said he was going to Florida he offered to take me with him. I would say yes, but that would be difficult with my parents. (they wouldn't let me go with him :( )