Not Fair

I'm just a joke to you.
You order me around expect me to listen
I used to look up to you admire you
but then I relized you don't listen to me
you just see what you want to see
you don't see that I'm unhappy
whenever I tell you something it goes in from one ear out the other
you tell me I can't hang out with people because you don't like my friends
you constantly say its to late to go out but that it's ok for my younger brother to go out but not me
don't you understand how much you frustrate me
I've been taking care of myself since I was little
you guys were never there when I needed you
and your never there now
When I cry you look the other way
I stop eating you tell me that I'm fat
I cut myself you yell at me for drawing on myself
There's so many times I want to scream
I question why I am here
I question why you say your my parents when you don't act like it.
Your just people who stop me from living life.

yep this week sucks. from being sick. to losing a best friend. to having a wasp in your room. and crying n still being sick yep it really does suck

Mucous

Mucous is gross
Mucous is Yellow
and being sick is very mellow
I wish I could go outside and play
without coughing up a glob of yellow.

Gahh XP read if you must but it's a fail

I miss the love notes.
I miss the touch.
I miss the secret glances
the inside jokes.
The stupid little arguments.
The little competitions.
The way I would get you
to spill a secret.
And how even when I messed up
and made a mistake
you would always looked at me
with those loving eyes
and try to make everything okay.

Kiss

A kiss is something not to be messed around with. It says so many things words can't describe and so many different meanings depending on the time.

We Came As Romans - To Plant A Seed (Video)

This music video has a good meaning behind it

Beloved- Tenth Avenue North

This song is supposed to be a love song from god. But if you take god out of the picture you can see a guy singing this to a girl he loves.

BTW Mice and Men is not only a book but its also a band for all you people out there who don't know.

My tummy

So here's the low down I never know when I'm hungry. The only way I know I'm hungry is when I feel dizzy, pain in my stomach, or I get heart burn. I have a pretty weird acid reflects don't I. But I also can't over eat or else haha major tummy ache. My mom says its because I'm not used to eating alot, but ehh its whatever. So yeah right now my tummy hurts so I must get food. But the weird thing is my body has been demanding food a lot more then usual oh well.

Of Mice And Men - Second and Sebring (video)

<3

"But love is blind, and lovers cannot see 
The pretty follies that themselves commit."
~William Shakespeare

You Said

You said you loved me
those are bitting words
I try to believe you mean it,
but then why are you with her.
I hurt all over.
I guess it's okay.
I've been surviving day by day.
I try to move on
you bring me back
I'm ensnared by your trap
but the thing is I don't fight back
I love you I hope you know
and I mean it.

Pulled Back

I feel like I'm holding onto a raft
I've finally been able to reach the surface
to take a breath
I feel the waters tugging me down
taking me back
awaiting my return.

Letting Go

My heart jumps my heart flutters
its broken pieces flying everywhere.
It hurts but it's healing.
I'm finally able to breathe in a breathe of air.
I miss him
I love him,
but he know's I'll always be there
he's happy that's all that matters.
But now it's my turn
I have to let go
I have to wipe away the tears
I have to let go of what could've been
and grab on to whats happening now.

Safe

When you hold my hand I feel safe
as if nothing could go wrong
all my worries cease
all the pain fades
its like everything that happened
didn't happen at all
I feel like I'm the only girl in the world.

Dweeb

When you look at me I think what a dweeb
Is he trying to impress me?
But when I look at you
I know I'm just as bad.
I feel like a little kid again
excited because you held my hand.